Coffee date


Doc suggested I do more of what I feel peaceful doing so I did some baking.

Hi! Thanks for joining me for some coffee today. Would you like a muffin? It’s one of these but with cinnamon chips.

What’s in your cup?

I’m pleased there is still chocolate donut coffee at work. Sometimes there isn’t and those can be sad days.

I have some tentatively good news to report. Last week I went to my docs to see if my thyroid meds needed to be adjusted because I just was feeling so mentally terrible, my hair was falling out again, my skin was a mess again, and my sleep was all screwed up. (More than normal.) Yes, I’ve been stressed out, but it felt like more.

My doctor is wonderful and knows that ball of anxiety one trip and fall from going off the cliff isn’t actually ME. She looked at my labs from last fall and asked if I brought up some of the concerns with the person I saw while she was on maternity leave. I told her I had and she got visibly annoyed. Turns out my thyroid meds should have been adjusted then.

She adjusted them to start the next day and knock on wood, each day, I’m feeling more and more like myself.  She also ran more labs to see if they will need to be adjusted further. Now if my hair would grow back, that’d be great.

(It’s not just that simple, but I have a game plan for the other stuff like weight gain and blood pressure. Including obeying her order to get back to the mat and treadmill.)

In a bit of sad news, I said goodbye to my swim team this week. I’m finding it necessary to cut back on things; stepping back for my health and sanity. (Also the session was over, I didn’t just leave in the middle.) I’m keeping certain lessons because I adore the kiddos and the classes I am teaching have the sweetest kids you’ve ever met.

If this is my last session doing more than filling in and teaching private lessons, it’ll be a good one to go out on.

I’m not sure what I’ll do with my extra “free” time. But I’m sure I’ll find something…like yoga, crafting, baking, get the house ready to sell, etc. Who knows?

What are you up to?


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#AtoZChallenge: T


This has nothing to do with trying other than me working on finding beauty in something every day.

t is for trying
today i will try my best
and do the right thing

eat “right”, be active
be focused and productive,
kind to all i meet

if i fail today?
will try to be kind to me
try more tomorrow

will try something new
that i haven’t tried before
what? i do not know

but something i know
trying can be so trying
but i won’t give up


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#AtoZChallenge: S


s is also for my friend sammi

s is for yes, still
i am still here; just been weird
sometimes get that way

still plugging along
sorting things out as i go
i am still trying

trying to be me
not who others want from me
still just me, you see

sometimes that’s messy,
frazzled, anxious, sort tempered
not always best self

other times awesome
calm, creative, patient, kind
this? who i aim for

sometimes i fall short
not my very best self, but?
still am who i am

bubbly happy girl?
still there, some ways happier
others not as much

still working on fix
but it won’t be overnight
practicing patience

didn’t have to make before
makes bigger challenge

still looking for good
thanking universe for smiles
see them every day

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Survey Says! How Court died in a past life

past life diedIf you can’t read that, it says that Courtney died in 1648 by falling off a cliff. How morbid.

This accident cost you your life at the time, Courtney! You were a good person whose death shook many people. That’s why you’ve been given a second chance and another life, which will be long and fulfilling!

If you want to see how you died, click here How did you die?

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Coffee Date and a little #AtoZChallenge: R


This little guy is going to be an apple someday.
If the weather keeps cooperating.

Friday, you’re late! No, not really, but I missed you so it feels like it. I had a real hankering for chocolate donut coffee today so I stopped at Target on the way into work to pick some up. They had 14 different kinds of vanilla and hazelnut, but didn’t have any chocolate. I wasn’t going to spend $12 on the mocha flavored box so I went to find chocolate syrup.

I found hot fudge first. I’m not disappointed at all.

So how are you? What’s in your cup? Did you make it through Lent and Passover? (If you observe either.) I got a lot of what I wanted to get done for Lent accomplished, but not the running. I made my hamstring angry again (up where it connects to my sit bone) so running was off the table. It did make it possible to finish more projects, write more letters, and clean out some clothing though. Next year’s tax return is growing!

(I did abstain from peanut butter, peanut sauce, and peanut butter chocolate candy for the entire duration of Lent. High five! I’ve also opened a new jar at my desk this week.)

I’m hoping to tackle some more projects this weekend. Crap weather and few plans? While napping sounds excellent, I can do a few projects around the house. Speaking of projects, I was lamenting to BatGirl yesterday that home improvement stores need a “buy this room/project” button. I was looking at some bathrooms for the “refresh” and man, digging through the site to find the individual items is for chumps.

I managed to find items I wanted though, so that’s cool. Now to just figure out a time to tear apart the bathroom to redo it! I was feeling bold yesterday and thought, why not? I have a free weekend! It’s supposed to be crappy! Let’s do it!

Today I’m feeling much less daring. There’s plumbing involved after all…Electrical stuff, okay, but I’m not all about plumbing – yet. It might be something I regret.

Speaking of, how about today’s ‘ku?

r is for regrets
but don’t think have any
maybe retrospect

a few things i’d change
maybe? but not things i did
many choices made

some i’d make again
even questionable ones
but don’t laugh at that!

everything taught me
something i needed to learn
sometimes more than once

late nights we spent out
bonding, making memories,
new friends and foes too

add to who i am
and what i bring to the world
i can’t give that back

The closest thing to a regret I have is considering going back to DJZ after how horrible he was to me. (But you know what? I learned a lot from that.) I might regret being gunho about a bathroom redo too, but I bet I’d learn a lot from it!

Do you have any regrets?

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#AtoZChallenge: Q

so q is for “quoi?”
as in a je ne sais quoi
all my faves have it

unnamed quality
draws us to us to one another
it’s “i don’t know what”

“thing” you can’t describe
more of a feeling  you get
maybe chemistry?

mehmere used to say
it was how she found her friends
they had “it”, but what?

doesn’t matter what
find it, embrace it, hold tight
they are your people

i can pinpoint some
qualities my friends all share
and mostly all good!

kindness, brains, and heart
humor, beauty, hard workers
snark, spitfire, and sass

but every last one
has magically pulled me in
with je ne sai quoi

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#AtoZChallenge: P


The Bro and I joke that’s how you get to our hometown.

p is for peter
as in peter, peter pan
who never grew up

stories of lost boys
wendy, hook, tinkerbelle too
and their adventures

he’s one of my faves
have a soft spot for lost boys
i’m not quite wendy…

don’t want to mother
but be their friend, safe space, love
but not quite tink

love adventure
mischievous, with spunk and sass
bring on the challenge

anyway, i’ve been
reading the book if can’t sleep
see friends in pages

have you read the book?
if not, do you know the tales?
from book, who are you?

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#AtoZChallenge: O

2017-04-18_04-11-51o is for once, right?
perhaps once upon a time
was a certain way

but the story changed;
it isn’t so any more
which one was better?

or was it just so
and it is not anymore?
this is what is now

or could be only
this is how it is for now
and it will improve

is unknown right now
just know i’m looking at
different o, options

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#AtoZChallenge: N

16649139_10102627235041872_6435829284774926720_nn is for nanny
sunday marked three years she’s gone
if you count easters

i miss her dearly
her humor, spunk, fight and strength
read more about her

i love you nanny
thank you for beautiful day
with a rainbow end

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#AtoZChallenge M

m is for maybe
could be yes, but could be no
just feels like limbo

it’s one of my least
favorite words, but one used
maybe too often

little bits limbo?
they’re okay and expected
big things it’s not good

then theres bigger things
do i stay or do I go?
is it yes or no?

maybes there are hard
can accept any answers
or learn to do so

but i have to know
so i can make up my mind
and not say maybe

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