There are roughly 22 minutes until I’m 35 yet I rarely feel that old. Look, I realize I’m not actually all l that “old” and age really is just a number, but sometimes the number itself gives me pause.
2014 gets mixed reviews as far as years of my life go. Much like other years there were stresses and happy times, mellow days and sadness, ridiculous excitement and disappointments.
Friends welcomed babies and others lost parents and grandparents. Some lost babies and others got married.
Frank and I said goodbye to our first apartment together and hello to our home. (And goodbye to our money!) We said goodbye to Nanny, but hello to new babies and new friends, and reconnected with old ones.
There was a palpable give and take to this year. I don’t know that previous years’ up and downs felt so intense. And it feels like there were more downs than ups.
Thankfully I had family to love me, friends to laugh with, wine, hard cider, and mojitos to drink on our deck, supportive bosses and great opportunities to showcase skills.
Also Frank. He’s my biggest supporter, entertainer, hug dealer, and all around great guy. He gets up early with Brody, makes dinner on nights I’m working late, and generally tries like hell to make me feel loved every single day.
I’m a lucky duck – damnit I know it and am thankful for it.
I don’t want to sound all melancholy because I’m not sad. It’s just 34 was a rough year and I’m hoping 35 is a little more gentle.
It’s the start to my New Year and there are a few things I want to do this year. I want to nurture myself (physically, mentally, creatively, etc) and my relationships with those I love and adore. I want to get back to regularly going to/practicing yoga again. I want to have a happier year, even if I have to dig deep to be there. I want to feel like I’ve accomplished more in the coming year than last year. And I want to face some interesting anticipated challenges with grace, humor, and patience.
It’s not too tall an order for 35, is it? Maybe I’m setting myself up to be disappointed? Time will tell, but I want to stretch more than my body this year.
Happy New Year’s to me!