I have some time to kill before yoga class so I’m writing this instead of going to Target for no particular good reason. I know I’ll find something I “just have to have”, but there’s nothing I need today.
Truth be told, I’m doing better than I was earlier today when I started writing this post at lunchtime, but I’m still struggling. My head and my heart are in some dark and cold places right now and it’s only the last hour or so that light and warmth are coming back to me.
Last night’s post is only part of it. I’m struggling with frustrations. Frustrations about my office job, about the pool, about being motivated for different projects, where I “should” be vs. where I am…there’s a lot that I’m sorting out in my head. My bright, happy self is hiding and she won’t come out to play just yet
(Also I might be sugar detoxing. We unpacked candy bags yesterday and I might have eaten quite a bit of deliciousness.)
I know it’ll be okay and I’ll find a silver lining and grow where I’m planted, but for the moment my head and heart are struggling. I’ll find a way to come through the crap and learn from this too, but right now I’m having to dig deep to find any good in what’s going on this week.
I’m hoping that (hopefully) hot yoga sweats away all the bad thoughts and frustrations from today. If it works, it’s going to be a gross sweat.