Confession: I don’t know that I ever really thought I could be the Next Best Thing or arrogant enough to think I was at the top of any given field. I know that I’m smart, hard working and good at some things, but I do not delude myself to think that there isn’t someone better or smarter right around the corner. Wanting to DO MY best though and BE THE best are different and part of me struggled with how to come to terms with that idea.
I believe that I have though.
One day not long ago, on the way to my car after work I decided that I didn’t want to be important in Life. I don’t know if it’s part of growing up or just part of me feeling unsettled/stressed that I’m not the Best All the Time that I came to this realization but since I realized this, I’ve felt much more relaxed.
That night, it was quiet and there was some rerun of something on in the background. I had finished some design work for a friend and opened up a post. This is what came out of my fingers:
I don’t want to be important to everyone. I know who I am Important and matter to in this Life.
I don’t want to be the best at everything I do. It’s not possible, I just don’t have that kind of focus. I want to DO my best with everything I try and do.
I don’t need to be super well known or make a huge impact on the world. I want to impact my world and loved ones in positive ways. Even if it’s just making the world a little brighter, easier and happier to my loved ones and in little ways to the strangers along the way.
Before you get worried that I’m super depressed or need to be have an intervention or psych hold, just don’t be. I’m fine. I’m just typing out loud here.
I’m Me. I might not be the smartest, well spoken, most kind, artistic, creative, beautiful etc, but at the end of the day when I look at the way my particular package comes together? My summation is pretty decent.
Perhaps that’s why I was left with a distinct distaste in my mouth for the article about the reasons why you’ll never do anything amazing with your life. I get to decide what my amazing to me life looks like, not you, Mr. Tirado, or anyone else.
And while it’s not perfect and likely won’t ever be, I like my life and who I am a whole lot.