Thursday Three – Things that scare the bejesus out of me about having a kid

No, I’m not pregnant. Don’t get excited and/or terrified about that possiblity. Moving on.

Frank’s sister had a baby late last night (Congrats again to Veronica and Ben!) and we were talking about having kids in general. I told Frank that I was scared of it, but that he couldn’t guess why. He made a few guesses, that included things like “royally messing them up” “getting the baby out” and “being a bad parent” but none of those were right.

I’m terrified of the actually being pregnant part. No no, really, hear me out.

  1. I struggle with accepting body as it is. I get that this shouldn’t be an issue, but I fear that I”m going to have a really hard time being bigger (even short term) than I need to be. Yes I know this is a control issue thing,
  2. The barfing. I hate barfing with a passion because once it starts it won’t stop. I throw up a few times a month without being pregnant and I really really hate it and am borderline scared of it happening. I can only imagine how bad this will be for me.
  3. All the judgement. Holy buggers Batman, have you ever read the comments on a “Mommy Blog”? Every decision is ripped apart, every choice criticized. Am I going to be able to take it when I’m eating my vegetarian sushi with Sue and getting side glances and glares? How about everything from family and friends? I’m hard enough on myself (true) I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle all the extra special criticism.

So there you have it. Why I’m terrified to actually be pregnant. Have you had a baby? What was the scariest part for you? If you haven’t had a kid yet, is there anything that scares you?

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3 Responses to Thursday Three – Things that scare the bejesus out of me about having a kid

  1. Sue says:

    I won’t go in to why I don’t have kids here, because that’s a post in itself and no reason for me to hijack your comments section. I also have nothing to add on the barfing, except to say that pregnancy affects everyone different. Maybe since you already vomit on the regular, pregnancy will be the one time you don’t?

    There are plenty of exercises you can do while pregnant so that you feel you’re taking control over your body. That said…being pregnant is the one time in your life when you can eat whatever you want without having to apologize. I say embrace that freedom! It’s one of the perks of mommy-hood, near as I can tell.

    As far as judgment – if it’s too much, we move our lunch dates to another, more pregnancy-friendly venue. Or you let me smack people upside the head. (Depending on the day, maybe both.) I have no problem with nine months of brownie sundae lunch dates! 🙂

  2. You are not alone. Before I had Emry.. same concerns.

    And I was told, “You wouldn’t be FAT, you’d be pregnant!” Which didn’t help.. because I had TOO LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR.

    But, if (and when) this happens.. I’ll help Sue smack people around who give you bad glares.

    I’m only a short car ride away! 😉

  3. Robbie says:

    As you well know, I have 3. My first one at 15, my second at 19, and my third at 27 (when I was actually a grown up). Let me just say that pregnancy weight sucks – I won’t try and tell you it doesn’t but just remember as long as you eat heathly while pregnant it’s alot easier to lose. 2nd, not everyone gets sick when pregnant so don’t sweat the stuff that may or may not happen, 3rd – people who critize other people’s parenting on blogs are assholes. The best thing to do is not blog about raising your kids. Sure, blog about how wonderful your child is, or new art they did that’s on your fridge – but keep your reading skills to yourself and you will be fine.

    Having a child is terrifying, but it is also the most wonderous, amazing, life changing in a good way EVER ! I actually know women who LOVED being pregnant. I was not one of them, but maybe you will be. Don’t sell yourself short Ella – who knows maybe pregnancy will agree with you 🙂

    The scariest thing for me about being pregnant was and this is silly…..I hope I don’t gross people out giving birth. The rest was a cake walk. I was more concerned with having my girly parts looking good when the day came, and my toes painted. Ya know, because if someone’s gotta be down there up and close, it should at least look nice.

    Oh, I’ll be more than happy to accompany Sue in smacking people around. I’ll even make a special trip for it.

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