I can embrace the fact that there are
many some reasons that I’m more than less totally awesome. Some of them are inherent to my temperament and personality. Some were learned from my grandparents, parents and wonderful friends and family. Some are traits or things that I have worked hard on and I am proud of being able to claim.
And some make me feel like a borderline awful person. I know that I should work to change these things, I have tools to do so, but you know what? I just can’t bring myself to do it. Here are three of the things about myself that I feel I should change, but just can’t bring myself to really care more about:
- Sometimes I lack compassion. I’m mostly a compassionate person, but I can’t bring myself to feel bad or even really care all that much when people who habitually make shitty decisions, yet again, make a shitty decision and end up in a position they don’t want to be. Then they whine about it. Ugh. I want to shake them and say, “Stop making shitty decisions! You really do know better!” just so they stop whining.
- I have fantastic ideas and the best intent to follow through on them once I get started. I also have at any given time 5-10 ongoing craft/blog projects that may or may not get finished. Along those lines, “deadlines” really only exist if they involve someone else or extra cost for me.
- I’m “nice” to people I don’t actually like. That said, being nice to them? Either professionalism rearing it’s ugly head, keeping the peace or a means to an end. I’m not inviting them to hang out or seeking out extra time with them, I’m just civil when put together for other reasons or if they reach out to me, I do what I can without going out of my way. I don’t consider this to be two faced, I consider this to be polite.
There you have it. Three reasons (that I’m ok with and can accept about myself) that I’m not entirely awesome. How about you? What can you own about yourself that makes you not totally awesome?