And then I joined…

I’m not much of a joiner and am often found off, doing my own thing or something I have to do for a group in my very own way. What can I say? It’s just not me. I forge a lot of my own paths I suppose.

But I’ve been struggling with something lately. Struggling a lot more than usual that is…and finally had a defining moment of clarity.

As I was checking my very heavy bag to fly home, I looked down and the bag weighed a hefty amount. That hefty amount was just about dead on to the amount of weight I’d like to lose.

And that bag was fricken heavy to lift.

As we went through security to get to our flight, I wondered what carrying that much weight around was doing to my joints? If I lost it, would I notice how much lighter I was? Could I fly if I did? (Ok, I realize I can’t actually fly, but you get the idea.)

I know that life doesn’t start 10 lbs from now, but what if a more energetic life with more clothing options from my favorite stores did and probably does. I think you’d be living under a rock or maybe not just paying attention at all to think that I’m one who isn’t living (and loving) her life, but I also think that there’s a way to do it that doesn’t mean carrying all this extra weight around.

So I joined WW. Yes, I paid the money to join. Now, I know I’m a member of MFP and that’s a great resource and all, but I’m hoping the financial commitment will hold me a little more accountable at the end of the day. Besides, maybe for me it’s not about tracking calories anymore, maybe I just need to get back to the mostly fruits and veggies that I was eating before (when I was almost to my goal). Most of them are “free” points so knowing that I can more or less have “unlimited” amounts of them will pull my diet back that way.

Will this work for sure like it’s worked for so many? I don’t know. But it’s a healthy shot and I’m going to give it my best.

I know some of you out there are working on being more fit and losing some weight for various reasons. If I may ask, what was your “moment”? If you’d like to share it in the comments below, via email to me directly in private or via your own post please do so.

***Please note that this isn’t about how I LOOK. It’s about how I feel in my own skin, how I feel in the clothing I own and about being a healthier me. Also, Frank doesn’t give a damn about how much I weigh. He just wants to be able to wrap his arms around me…and he can. This is for me.***


About Court

I spend a lot of time on the pool deck and making treats in my kitchen amongst other things.
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7 Responses to And then I joined…

  1. derryX says:

    I decided at the beginning of last year that I had to get back into shape. I was having issues staying awake standing up and having a lot of troubles sleeping.

    2011 was a good year, and I noticed some pretty big gains and loses, but my motivation in 2012 is much greater, and the progress is even greater. As the days progress, and I can feel myself being healthier (better breathing and sleeping, etc), the motivation gets even better.

    Best of luck. I’m always around if you want some tips, menu suggestions, or recipes.

  2. Good luck, sweety! You’re gunna rock the hell out of WW!

  3. Voice of Reason (ALB Edition) says:

    My “moment” came after a work related trip to Israel. There was a point on the trip that I had to do an alternative activity due to my size. Honestly, I just moved on with the rest of the trip and didn’t give it a second thought. When I got back to the US and people started sharing their photos, I couldn’t move past how I looked in those photos. It really got under my skin. I joined WW shortly after that. I initially lost 86 pounds on the program. I stopped following because I became pregnant. For 4 years now, I struggled in getting the weight I gained from the pregnancy off. I had gained back almost half of the weight back. That was plain crazy.. and what a waste of effort and time that I invested before.This past January, I had another moment and kicked myself in the ass to get back on the WW program (now new). I know that I need the help and guidance to reach my goal.

  4. Go you! I’m very proud of you. I’ve often thought of joining WW, but for some reason I keep holding back. And you’re absolutely right, it’s not about anyone but you and how you feel most comfortable.

  5. Robbie says:

    My moment was about 1 year after I had my son, we had taken a family photograph. One day a few months later we were all looking at the pic when someone said is that “insert name here” – this person has always been very obese – and my mother’s reply – “No that’s Scarlett.” I cried for two weeks. I picked myself up joined Weight Watchers and Kickboxing – dropped 70 pounds and never looked back !

    You know that I think you are beautiful just the way you are, but if this is what you need girlfriend then you go for it ! I know you can reach your goals šŸ™‚ Luv you.

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