To say that the last week was more like surviving a tornado than living life would be an understatement. I tried to do the right thing and went back to work too soon. I was shaky the first day back and it went down hill from there. Each night I slept less, each day it got progressively harder to maintain, and I was finding it emotionally exhausting to keep it together.
At one of my bosses encouragement, I took another day off. (Truth be told, I might have had to anyway seeing that I saw 4 am Friday morning and not because I was up early. )
Friday I managed to fall asleep for a few hours, took care of some things, met a friend for a little shopping and hung out with that guy I like a whole lot. BatGirl arrived late and we had a lovely evening with Bully Hill Love My Goat Red and Cookie Butter on waffles.
It was healing – sleep, downtime, friends and a dozen or so moments of feeling Mehmere there with me.
The weekend was filled with just what I needed: distractions, good friends, good food and an accomplishment. By the time Monday rolled around I was feeling refreshed and ready to go, but there was a problem…my apartment was empty and I wasn’t sure I could handle that.
I stopped off at Voice of Reason’s house on my way back to my place and shored up the mental/emotional cracks that were threatening to break. We chatted, planned and I left feeling that I could handle the quiet.
I cleaned the kitchen a bit, grabbed a drink, laid down on the futon and turned some NCIS on, knowing full well that I had no where to be for several hours and could fall asleep again…and I let myself drift off thinking about the great points from the weekend.
Notable moments from the weekend include but are not limited to the following:
- GenWar singing Red Solo Cup
- The marking of Frank and my second anniversary
- Baked french toast
- Someone wearing two pairs of glasses to watch TV
- A trip to the ER
- Em trying to wear my red shoes,
- Showing off my parents wedding album
- Spending time with some of the most delightful people ever.
Thank you, everyone for helping. I’m feeling more like my happy self again.