I was recently asked if I love what I do…and the answer is complicated. If you had asked me as recently as two years ago the answer would be very different than it is today. Previously, I did not, at all. I was bored, I was anxious and I wanted out. Here’s the thing though, I don’t know what it is that I would LOVE for a job and didn’t see anything that struck my fancy to go for. I figured the status quo was better than leaving and finding out that it was worse elsewhere.
Somewhere along the line that changed. I began realizing the opportunities that my job affords me. Time, so far really good health insurance that I don’t pay much money for, bosses I like, autonomy, opportunities to try new things within our organization, making contributions to the organization and our members that others may not be able to do and I’m getting better at what I do. I also found out about some bonus perks to take advantage of if I was willing to do the work.
I think the phrase is “Growing where you’re planted”. One day I decided that I was going to embrace my current situation and make the best of it. Be the best that I could be and dive into it. It wasn’t easy. I had some mental stumbling blocks along the way that required other conscious decisions and some hard work to over come, but I feel like I’m doing it. I’m making a less than stellar situation work through reframing and hard work.
And you know what? It’s working. I’m getting notes from my boss thanking me for specific contributions on projects, I’m getting recognized by other departments for the ways that I can help them with their projects and other department heads are seeing the ways that I shine.
Don’t get me wrong, some things are still shitty and feel like the rain just keeps falling, but those situations or days are par for the course in any job…and don’t forget (not to sound cliche) for a flower to really bloom it takes water and fertilizer, you just have to know what to do with them when they come along and apply them the right way.
So no, I still don’t love what I do, but I find that when what I love has a paycheck attached to it, I don’t love it as much any more so maybe it’s better I have grown so much where I’ve been planted.
How about you?